I sit here in my Easter outfit and for the 2nd time in as many days I am truly craving an orgasm. It’s been a month now since my locking, the longest I’ve gone without one in over a year. I thought the cravings had passed, but it seems I was wrong. I’m wondering if it has something to do with this week's assignment.
For the past three weeks, I’ve been required to dress femme 4 days per week for 8 hours each time. It had become normal to get home from my job and simply change into the type of outfit that you have begun to require. Something dressy and professional that fits my body and would be appropriate in an office setting. No sissy maid attire, so cosplay things. Only a few fetish type outfits have been allowed an example of which is the “punishment blouse”. I had become used to simply changing clothes and going about my household life. This week you added a layer. This week in order to be considered fully dressed I had to be wearing makeup and have my hair styled.
Foundation, eye shadow, lipstick, and blush were the minimum required. I have mascara on the way. Hair product/spray to create some kind of curl to augment the femme cut and style I was given at the salon. Now when going about my day I sometimes catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and it felt a little unrecognizable at times. I saw something that was feminine and actually a little pleasing to look at from time to time. I would take a second look to make sure it was still me. I still don’t feel like I really “pass” once I look deeply, but I’m feeling like if someone were to look across the street that they would see a girl. They would assume on just a glance without a very close inspection that I was someone in the middle of her workday getting lunch or running an errand. I know that if they came close and we spoke and they looked closer that I would be discovered, but for now, I could walk through a mall and not stick out as a boy in girls clothes.
I think realizing this has made me feel a little more desirable and has thus increased my sex drive. The result of which is the desire for orgasm…which I can’t have. While I have the craving, I love the feeling of being able to sleep through the night since my body has adapted to the device, so I’m glad I’m unable to achieve release as that would reset the adaptation process.
With the added assignment of hair and makeup, I now put in about 34 hours per week dedicated to being your girl. It’s almost a full time job and you have me dressed for it and looking like a great reflection of what you represent…power of femininity.
My purpose is to give my Mistress obedience and pleasure.
