The sleep deprivation is back as you know. Every time I go through this, I wonder if the induced orgasm was worth it or not. It’s so painful to wake up that way at night, but the few seconds of release after weeks (or sometimes months) of denial are always so pleasurable. It’s a constant argument in my head. Whenever I am on the edge of release, I almost dread that I’m going to be trading the next 4-5 nights of sleep for the few seconds that are coming.
I noticed something else during my service as your human art this week. While fully dressed I could feel you arranging parts of my outfit to be perfect for your photos. I was hypersensitive once you put the second mask on me. No light could get through at all and every other sense was enhanced 500%. Every time you adjusted the bow on my dress or moved my apron or fluffed my petticoats to make me your perfect Halloween decoration gave me an intense feeling of pleasure. Every single touch to every part of my body became sensual. Even the feeling of the cane made the piece of flesh you have locked up for your pleasure strain in its cage. Only the electric shocks had the adverse effects. Every single piece of bondage that was placed on me made the cage tighter and tighter. I can only imagine what would happen if I were to be totally immobilized. Neck attached to arms and legs, limbs tiedown and stretched, hips tied down and unable to thrust. No way for my body to react. Would I even be able to recover from that level of subspace? Would I want to? Just as I’ve accepted that there is no escaping danielle, I’m being slowly turned into something else that is completely dehumanized. Just a mere decoration.
It makes me feel as free as ever.
My purpose is to provide my Mistress with obedience and pleasure.
