It felt strange this week not getting to serve you in person after almost developing that “routine”. The Skype session that replaced it did make me realize that I do still have the ability to be teased and denied though. It also made me realize that oral service training is coming.
In your hypnosis/suggestion trance that you placed me in, I found myself straining in my cage most when you described how my tongue needed to be treating the gag that was in my mouth. Every time you mentioned that my limbs were not allowed to move and that my mouth was filled with the penis gag, I felt my hips begin to move up and down as if they were trying to fuck the chastity device. With no actual stimulation, it just continually kept me on the edge while being 100% unable to spill my mess. While I’m happy it’s allowed me to go back to sleeping through the night it left me wondering just how much of a mess I would have made had you been there in person to provide physical stimulation.
You said before starting that you almost had me come in person to just be placed in your cage while you took a nap and the thought of that had me swooning. I wonder if you would have a sweeter sleep knowing you had a sissy squirreled away in your cage just waiting. I could think of no greater joy that serving you in that manner. Knowing that my freedom was totally gone and at the whim of your body clock. If you decided to sleep for 4 hours, I would have no choice but to wait in whatever position you instructed for that long. There I would lay as your personal plaything just waiting for you to awake. With almost all of my senses removed, would it feel like hours, days, or just minutes locked away? How deep into subspace would I sink? How much more addicted to being in your cage would I become?
My fantasies are already reaching extremes, so I wonder how satisfying it would be to have those fantasies fulfilled. Would they make me go absolutely mad and change me more than they have already?
I look back at my years of journaling for you and you have taken me from being a male that was just dressed in your presence very sporadically into a slave that is now only happy when identifying as sissy danielle 24/7. I wonder now what your next plan for me is. How close am I to handing myself over to a TPE situation? People in my situation are few and far between from what I’ve researched, so my imagination doesn’t have much in reality to go on. All I can do is trust in you and follow willingly where you lead me.
My purpose is to provide my Mistress with obedience and pleasure.
