Sissy Danielle's Chastity: Wk #17 07/17/2022

This week our in-person meeting has a very “first day at work” vibe to it.  Up until now everything we had done in person very much felt like training and preparing me for my actual purpose.  This time from the second I walked through the door until that evening felt very much like I being used as your servant/personal assistant.  From the inspection of my clothing to having my corset tightened even more and to having the shackles put on me, it felt like all of the training that you had been giving me was finally being put to use.

When you placed the hood on my, affixed the gag, and began to use me as your ashtray I immediately felt this level of submissiveness and satisfaction that was unequal to anything I had felt this entire time in chastity to you.  Having my senses reduced to just hearing and smell, being unable to see, speak, move without permission…all of these sensations just heightened my awareness of my position as your submissive.

I could smell the cigar that you were smoking and hear your voice.  I could feel you undoing my blouse so you could inspect my breasts.  I could feel myself enjoying these feelings and the pain they were causing in the chastity device.  I also noticed you using the vibrator only on areas that would enhance that pain but not allow me any release.

Every bit of training I had been through, all of the kneeling positions, keeping my back straight and shoulders back, making sure to keep my arms at my sides, allowing my brain to obey your every desire without question just clicked into place.  It allowed me to feel and actually be useful to you.  Even when you dismissed me from your immediate presence and gave me a task to complete, I still felt myself keeping my back straight, my shoulders back, and walking with purpose.  I still felt like I was “at work” serving You Ms Patty.  That feeling lasted until much later in the day and was something I didn’t want to fade away or end.

Being corseted daily and having a strict dress code now implemented for my “regular” job did help with not experiencing a severe drop like I have in the past when achieving that level of subspace, but it did happen nonetheless.  I have slept extra hard in the couple of nights after those hours at your personal service.

I’m glad on one hand that I wasn’t permitted to make a mess this time, but the fact that my body actually started to thrust involuntarily after I left due to its desire to have an orgasm now has me craving one more than ever.  I needed that sleep that wouldn’t have been possible had I released, but I know that release would have been glorious.  It’s the greatest catch-22 ever.

I now look forward to every chance to serve in person now that it seems my training is being transitioned into actual service of some sort.  My imagination is running wild with thoughts of how you will use me in the future and what tasks you have in store for me.  I for sure am grateful for any opportunity yo serve my purpose and hope to never be released.  If I could sign a permanent contract, at this point I think I would.

My purpose is to give my Mistress obedience and pleasure.