I feel like I jumped another hurdle this week. You might say I’ve come to fully accept what you have been working so hard to teach me. I am better when I am danielle.
Until this week, danielle was someone I became when getting ready to see you in person or serve you on Skype. She was the alter ego. She was a costume I put on. This week, both during our Skype meeting and when you had me spin for you after getting my new hair style and color, I realized how much more natural I’ve begun to feel in that persona. I feel better about myself when I have your approval and others seem to take more notice of me as well.
When I walked into the hair salon in the dress you had me wear, with the corset cinched underneath and nails and makeup on point, the two women at the front desk got the biggest smiles on their faces. They both complimented how much they loved how I looked. I immediately felt comfortable instead of nervous. From the time I sat in the chair to the time later that day when you inspected my new style and had me model for you, I didn’t want the day to end. As danielle I felt good about myself and actually felt pretty.
I realized how right you had always been since the first time I came to you over 15 years ago. You had always said you see me as a girl. Despite the piece of flesh, you own the key to, everything about me both inside and out is becoming to feel much more natural as danielle. I wake up in the morning and look forward to the moment I tighten the corset and see my shape. I feel more “myself” when walking with perfect posture and noticing the shape the corset and bra give me. I enjoy looking at myself and how I look much more when I’m in the dress code you’ve set up for me than when I’m not.
I’ve also noticed the things that turn me on have shifted. Dressing is no longer something I view as just a fetish. It no longer causes me to strain in my cage. It just feels normal and like something I should be doing every day. Now that strain is caused by doing things that fulfill my mantra. When you informed me that there would be times you have no use for me and I would be expected to kneel silently or even expect to be caged, I found myself getting excited. Knowing that even when being useless to you, there were still ways that I could obey you and go be you pleasure I strained in my chastity device. Those thoughts happened quite often this week. Maybe too often.
I’ve pretty much been reprogrammed. I love the emotional high I get from being danielle. More and more I want that to be permanent.
My purpose is to give my Mistress obedience and pleasure.
