This week’s assignment was possibly the most stressful one I’ve had in awhile. Not since you made me spend an hour in a park did I experience the anxiety that I had when thinking about completing this one. Standing in the middle of downtown Dayton, almost feeling people possibly looking down from their office windows and seeing me taking photos of myself…I’m sure no one was actually observing, but my imagination was running wild.
I was very happy with the outfit I was in. I felt very professional and with the hairstyle you had just given me I felt as feminine as I had in quite awhile. I felt very passable by the time I had arrived downtown and needed to exit the safety of my car to take the necessary photos. I still had no desire to actually interact with another human, but felt that visually I was not obviously anything but a real girl. danielle once again is becoming less and less of a costume and more and more of an identity.
Your reminder that I was about to be released from chastity after you released me from your cage this week also induced a small amount of panic. I’ve become so used to having that reminder of your control over me that I almost don’t think I’d be very happy without it. I know I’m still not really 24/7 in a TPE with you, but it’s close. Not having that structure in my life would leave me listless. I don’t think I’d respond too well to being “free” for at least the first couple of days. I know it would just be the equivalent of sub drop after an intense play party or a weekend play convention, but I’m not ready for that kind of hangover. I was overjoyed when given permission to add an additional 30 days. 30 more days of chances to wear your bondage. 30 more days of your lock. 30 extra days to spend in your cage waiting for your attention. I will enjoy every single day of it.
My purpose is to give my Mistress obedience and pleasure.
