Hopefully we’ve finally made it through the extreme cold. My body doesn’t handle it well at all. It is always hard the weeks we are unable to meet in person, especially when there is not even an assignment in lieu of that meeting. It always leaves me without that subby feeling that I’ve come to crave so much. I just find it strange those days where I wake up and I don’t have that desire to have contact with you. I’m able to dress like a boy and don’t even consider ways to look more femme.
It follows that I then don’t even strain in my cage for a few days in a row. I just go about my day, work as usual, come home, eat, sleep, then do it all over again. I don’t really feel much sense of purpose when I don’t get as much interaction with you. It makes me wonder just how fast your years of conditioning would wear off should I be unlocked one day. Would it really just take a couple weeks like withdrawal from any other substance? Maybe I’m just getting used to having periods of time of being ignored to the point where I expect it?
These weeks always leaves me with question that go through my head like that. It also makes me wonder just how much an extended stay will allow me to avoid this kind of withdrawal when it does happen. When our normal sessions begin to become domestic service more and more often with these now frequent weeks where we don’t meet not affect me as much?
Hopefully as the weather starts to warm, we are able to really start to get back into the routine that has been most of the last two years. It’s really been a bumpy last few month.
