I can’t believe it’s getting to be so close to two years locked in chastity. I remember when I was younger reading erotic fiction about being locked this long when I thought 2 weeks locked was insane. Now that I’ve actually experienced such a long term I understand how those stories were able to be written. Unless I’m writing about it or serving you personally while you tease and deny me, I barely even notice the device. The desire to pleasure myself is all but gone and while I still know I am a biological male, I have accepted that I’m a girl now. In fact, if it wasn’t for the current political climate and seeing how people like me are viewed as a whole, I might be more comfortable going out without a chaperone.
When you told me how you’ve shown how I dress for you to your niece and how she likes how I dress, it actually made me wonder how many people out there would be comfortable going out in public with me dressed and just walk around a mall or someplace with “normal” people or go eat at a restaurant to see how the normies react. I still don’t feel like I’d pass very well, but I actually feel better about myself when either dressed in my work uniforms or wearing my proper dress code for serving you in person. What I used to find humiliating I now actually crave. Now that it’s so cold out I don’t get to wear my work uniform as much, so this time of year is a little harder on me as I don’t get to exist in subby mode nearly as much. The weeks I don’t get to see you in person like last week are especially hard. I’ve always had an addictive personality and I’m pretty sure that’s my new addiction. Between that feeling and the fact it’s getting dark by 6pm, I find myself going to bed ridiculously early.
I hope as we get to 2 years locked under your thumb that this is the month I finally get to come be your domestic slave for a day. I’ve been waiting so long and been trying to mentally prepare for so long. I know I’m up to the task physically and can produce good work. I’m just hoping that I don’t break mentally being in super subspace for so long.
I guess there is only one way to find out.
