This week was sort of a “stay of execution” from being led further and further down the rabbit hole. I definitely miss the in-person time I get to serve you, but I feel every time I leave you from those in person meeting that I am getting further and further from my male identity. While I hope you feel better ASAP, I also know it’s one extra week that I have put off any kind of final destination where I permanently become danielle 24/7. I already wear her body for the most part, but without that weekly reinforcement that sends me into that mental subspace, I’m able to hand on to my mind.
Chastity is still managing to keep me consistently on edge. Every time I feel the corset controlling how I’ve started to naturally walk, every time I play with the chain keeping me locked into danielle’s body, every time I slide on a pair of panties and layer on some tights or panty hose over the top of them. All of these sensations remind me what I’m doing to your body now that I’m locked and under your thumb. Me looking that way pleases you, and pleasing you is my purpose. I have no choice. Those thoughts cause that piece of flesh to get as excited as it can before the cage reminds it that it is no longer a useful part of me and returns it back to its default state before that cycle immediately starts again. I would say it’s exhausting, but it’s become so normal that it no longer affects my overall energy level.
I am getting anxious for warmer weather. I have so much of my femme attire that is simply not practical for the winter months. I know you like a wide variety of eye candy and I also know you liked when I was able to dress nice in a vest and tie for work so that you could clearly see danielle’s body through my tailored dress clothes. I can’t wait for that requirement to kick back in. While I enjoy being warm every day, I miss the way I was given extra attention and communication when I looked up to par for you. Every time I see the temperatures creep a little higher, I get a little more excited.
Here’s to going deeper down the rabbit hole.
My purpose is to give my Mistress obedience and pleasure.
