I sit here a full 3 days after serving you this week still locked in my collar. Even though I just went through a day working where I wasn’t in uniform due to the cold, I was still very much still having thoughts of being under your thumb and thinking about ways to entertain you.
This week's in person meeting very much sunk me deep into that subby mode. Without even having to be told I knew what I had to please you when you had me lay on the floor and began to raise my bound legs off the floor. You had told me to drink the extra water I was slowly being pulled into a position that was putting so much extra pressure on my bladder. The kicker was when you used something to start poking and prodding at the spot just below my balls. It felt so much like I wanted to orgasm but also release my bladder at the same time. It didn’t take too long at all after that for it to happen. I filled up the diaper you had put me in and it felt almost exactly like an orgasm.
The part that surprised me was when you said I was lucky you didn’t put a urinal gag in my mouth and force me to give myself a facial. I never in a million years ever fantasized about that, but just hearing the idea and how much it sounded like something that you would immensely enjoy made me wish you had. I imagined my bladder releasing and going straight into that gag and you laughing and telling me how much you love humiliating me like that. Going straight from that orgasm feeling to the sound of you being more entertained than ever just sounded like a chance for me to perfectly serve the purpose you have given me in my mantra.
Coming up on 2 years, chastity is just my way of life. My body is more feminine than ever thanks to the modifications you have slowly made. And now my kinks are slowly becoming what you want them to be to make you happy. In exchange I get to enjoy the high that is my subby mode for weeks at a time. It takes the perfect storm to result in a day or two without them.
