I felt so much like your personal assistant this week. Upon walking into your door and having my attire inspected to be deemed appropriate, instead of any kind away from conditioning or training, you had me change into attire I could work in and used me to complete tasks. It felt so natural to be of use to do things to assist you. Weeding your front bed and completing the dusting and cleaning chores you needed to be done gave me a sense of accomplishment.
It actually left me unprepared for what you had me do next. No shackles, no bondage, but you still managed to torture me without you even touching me. When you ordered me into my hood and had me lay down to start caressing my own body for your entertainment I began to wonder if maybe you were doing something similar to yourself while you watched me begin to struggle and strain against the chastity cage. When you ordered me to squeeze my own balls and gave me permission to orgasm while not unlocking me, I could do nothing but continue to tease myself in despair knowing orgasm while caged is impossible.
Then I got a reward.
For just the second time since being locked, you allowed me to give myself an orgasm. I know it didn’t take long at all, but the long tease leading up to it made spilling my mess when you unlocked the cage happen so quick. When it happened, I felt this wave of extreme pleasure pass through my body. It made me remember why I used to make myself make a mess almost daily before you locked me away. That reward let me know why being a good girl and doing everything I can to help you without hesitation has become my purpose. All of the training, the conditioning, the ruined orgasms, the fluid release with no orgasm…all of it was worth it for those few seconds of extreme bliss.
Since that moment you’ve left me in subby mode by locking me in my pink collar for a full 3 days this time before the timer went off. It became a very secure and safe feeling of who owns me. I wish the timer could be set for a whole week, but at least I still know that you haven’t maxed it out yet.
More and more I’m looking forward to when my time serving as your toy lasts for a very extended period. I feel like I’m so close to being able to do it without breaking down emotionally. I never imagined I would ever be this close.
