This week I kind of felt like I was actually your collared property for the first time. Usually after I arrive and settle in, I serve as a listening ear for a bit as that is one of my talents/gifts, you have me undress, and you play with your toy. This week instead of playing, you had me change into my work clothes, attached my collar, and assigned me tasks. A long time ago, having to perform tasks outdoors on your front porch where people might see me would have terrified me and I totally would have rushed through whatever task you gave me. Now I am so conditioned by you that I am a girl that all I was focused on was completing the painting task you gave me properly. I wasn’t in super deep subspace, but I was subdued enough that I was completely calm and felt totally safe in that scenario.
When I came back inside and completed more tasks, I began to get deeper and deeper into subspace. By the time you had me finally get into the hood, I felt so good about being able to accomplish something you needed as opposed to just being a toy. The acts of reciting my mantra with the gag in and then teasing myself for your amusement were just the cherry on top. I knew I was totally under your spell when I could hear your breathing slow and realized you had felt comfortable enough with me free in the room to sleep.
Even though I could have stopped, knowing you weren’t watching, I continued following your last order to slowly tease myself from head to toe. I could feel myself mildly straining in the cage. When you did awake and said I had permission to orgasm if I was able, I know there was no chance I would get there with the cage still on, but I knew I needed to amuse you and make you happy, even though I knew it would leave me more frustrated than ever. The sound of you laughing as I pursued the impossible made me try even harder as I now love entertaining you in any way I can. As my time ran out on my permission, I was once again totally frustrated and very emotional…. but also happy.
I felt like I passed a test. It’s not everyone that you feel comfortable enough to just have them bondage free in your presence to be able to sleep. I feel like I leveled up from just one of your subs, to becoming one of your more trusted slaves.
