I’ve never been so frustrated while also being so relieved. As you pulled my locked sissy clit out and began handling it, I felt the beginnings of an orgasm and a fluid release. Having not hearing that I had permission to release, I fought it back the same way one does when they need to urinate and aren’t in close proximity to a toilet. By the time you granted me permission, saying you wanted me to have a few restless nights in chastity due to an orgasm resetting my body, the ability to release had passed. You kept teasing for a few more minutes, but the orgasm had already been ruined. I could do nothing but moan in despair as I was aroused, but the chastity device was doing its job. When you finally stopped teasing, I was once again left without orgasm.
It did induce super subspace however. When you told me to get into my service dress code and gave me my apron to tie on, I didn’t even hesitate. It was automatic. You could have used me for whatever you wanted at that point and all of my conditioning would have limited my vocabulary to “Yes Ms Patty”. That super sub space has become better than an orgasm to me.
Not only that, but upon leaving, I had an intense desire to use the restroom. Within minutes of leaving, my body released, and I used the diaper you have been sending me home in. I used it again as soon as I got home and was then forced to wear that fully saturated diaper until 8pm. The whole day I was stewing in that diaper, I remained very deep in subspace. Even though I had changed out of my acceptable service dress code, I remained feeling like I was dressed and truly wished I was still in your presence and being used as your toy.
I have no doubt anymore that you have the ability to manipulate me in such a way to do whatever you say. You’ve done it without any kind of threat of corporal punishment. While you know how to cause me pain and how to withhold pleasure, you’ve simultaneously made be crave that pain and lack of pleasurable and made me find joy in it. It’s become something I’m addicted to and I never wish to have that feeling of not being under your thumb again.
