This week saw no in person meeting, but enough discussion with you about just how much of my old life has disappeared while under your thumb with my flesh locked up by you.
Today I shared a photo of myself with you of me dressed in male clothing that is definitely on the comfort/casual side. I had my baseball team’s jersey on that I coach and play on and you noticed how my body language was most definitely different. I realized how accurate you were and how that outfit is basically just a costume I wear to fit in to that world now. I most certainly have no way to be fully danielle in that world…even the two biological females that play in that league wear that same uniform. I don’t truly feel like the me that I am now.
It really made me realize how far your conditioning has taken me on this path. Close to 600 days ago, I just thought I was going to go through orgasm tease and denial when that lock snapped closed. I had no idea that it was going to transform me this much. Not only do I feel almost naked in the few times you either let me out of the cage while supervised or the two times we have had parts of the device break resulting in unsupervised chastity, but now dressing as a boy feels like I’m playing a part in a high school play.
I really can’t wait to be back with you in person. I’ve been thinking more and more about your talk with me about what an extended sleepover will be like and taking that next step with you is something I absolutely can’t wait to try. Just the thought of it being so close snaps me into subby mode and makes me want to do anything to make you happy with me as your sissy sub. I know it’s a serious step up there with an actual permanent collaring and I really want to prove myself. You’ve spent so much time training me and conditioning me, I want so much just to keep showing you through my actions and my obedience that I will almost anything to make you happy.
