This week my service to you involved a much-anticipated release, but per usual it wasn’t how I expected it to go. Having the chastity device removed while completely bound and not even able to move my hips or bend my legs was a strange feeling to begin with. Then the feeling of having what was my first full erection knocked down with the use of freezing cold air and painful slaps to the shaft and the balls made me question what your intentions were. Next having my balls stretched away from my body with the Velcro strap before bringing out the vibrator caused a release of fluid, but the first release came with no orgasm, just an emptying of all pent-up mess. It wasn’t until you kept up the massaging of my sissy clit that I felt a very small, but very frustrating, orgasm.
In comparison to the times where you forced me to drink water before putting me in the cage and binding me in such a way that my bladder had constant pressure, those moments of finally giving in and pissing myself were much more pleasurable than these sporadic releases I am being given. I almost fear you have now conditioned me to no longer feel orgasm from release of semen and I now only derive that feeling of pleaser from the release of my bladder while in heavy bondage inside your cage.
The result of the release did exhaust me to the point of sleeping more than usual. It didn’t result in sleepless nights as it used to. In fact, the opposite happened. I slept almost 14 of the next 16 hours. The next night I slept a full 10 in a row. That fluid release and that one extremely small orgasm completely exhausted my body. Maybe this heat wave had something to do with it as well, but heat never had this much of a side effect before.
The release combined with my daily uniform has kept me that subby headspace until today. It still seems to last 4-5 days each time, so I anticipate Tuesday or Wednesday I will once again start to crave time serving you in person again or getting some sort of 24/7 TPE orders. More and more I fantasize about a full 24 hours with you and what the fallout from a day like that would have on my mind and body. Part of me wonders if I would tap out before I could complete that time while another part wonders if I would just adapt and it would begin to feel “normal”, but it has become a very permeating fantasy.
I look forward once again to what your next plans are for me now that I have had my body reset with a fluid release.
