I thought I would adapt and instead I’ve done the opposite. Having to wear the vest and tie attire to work has kept having the side effect of making me feel extremely turned on the entire workday. Each morning, from the second I finish buttoning my vest to complete the day’s outfit to the time I loosen my tie at the end of the day, I am persistently straining in the cage. I find while driving around I want to move my hips and grind the air and actually look forward to bumps in the road. I hold my phone to that area to that area from time to time so I can feel the vibrations when I get job notifications, but the cage keeps me constantly edged and frustrated.
Last week during our session I thought I was close to finally breaking through multiple times. I know that had you let the vibrator touch the cage I would have finally felt an orgasm, but you didn’t even get it out last week.
I have noticed lately that you have begun ramping up the bondage while being pumped in a way by adding a different thing each week to the standard spread eagle restraints. One week it was the rope around my balls. The next it was the thigh cuffs so I couldn’t close my legs. Last week it was the posture collar to keep my head in place. All had similar effects of keeping me teased and edged while the pumping takes place. My brain is now associating anything that feels binding with being arousing…probably why the form fitting dressy outfits I am required to work in are having this effect on me. Just as I adapt to one kind of bondage, a different kind is used or a mix of two. I would have thought that after all of the conditioning in the cage that I would be used to it, but it’s completely different when applied while being pumped and feeling and seeing my body transform into something more and more permanently femme.
I can only imagine what people think when they see me. I still have male features, but more and more when I look at photos, I see a femme hairstyle, hourglass hips, a bit more of a tear, and what are now growing breasts and more pronounced nipples. I’ve gone without a bra a few times and I can feel that area of my body moving without that added support keeping it in place.
I can’t wait to serve in person again Ms. Patty. I’m anxious to find out how much bondage while being pumped with be added to keep the teasing conditioning going so I remain almost constantly frustrated while working. The torture and teasing that you have turned my life into almost 24/7 was never what I expected, but then again, very little that you do to me is.
