Not a lot to report on this week. The holiday meant no meeting with you since Monday. The subby feeling from that meeting wore off by Thursday so for a few days I’ve been operating as “normal”. When I think about it, it kind of amazes me that I can ever go a few days without any kind of subby thought going through my head when I’m constantly locked and regularly dressing in femme clothing. I know it’s just a few days until you “reboot” my brain into that subby mode. I always feel so high when in that frame of mind. The nice thing is that it’s something that I come down from so slowly every time that the withdrawal isn’t nearly as catastrophic as when I quit doing anything and everything that could be considered addictive.
It has been nice having a few more warm days. It’s let me dress a little flirtier lately. Less layers have allowed the body that has been slowly developing all winter to shine through. I feel like I’ve drawn a few extra glances when I’m not wearing 5 layers and people can see that I now have a more defined waist and a little more shape in my chest area. As the days get even warmer, I almost can’t wait to see how I will look with I’m required to start dressing appropriately for work in addition to my one day a week coming to serve you. Without all those layers and in those fitted dress clothes, I won’t be able to hide this body at all. I am a bit anxious if people will begin mistaking my biological gender even when dressed in male dress attire.
I guess I’ll find out soon. I look forward to being in your presence again soon.
