This week’s session was amazing. I love when I get to spend my time with you in full service and show my training has progressed. Getting to show how I’ve learned to take direction from you without you having to say a word. A slight tug of a chain dictating where I need to walk. A similar tug telling me if I need to stand, sit, or kneel. All cues taken without the ability to speak or see as I’m secure in my hood, gagged and blindfolded. Hearing you laughing and enjoying yourself made me feel good that I was serving my purpose. Even though you weren’t continuing to develop my breasts or my change into being more and more permanently danielle, I felt like I was performing my mantra to the letter. I especially loved the way you added the chain between the collar and leg irons that let me know when to stand so you could torture that piece of flesh between me legs. I truly felt like I could exist in that state for a full day should I ever get that chance.
As I also mentioned, I’ve really started to notice how I feel emotionally when I’m dressed presentably. Whether in femme or boy attire, when dressed up I feel more confident, more submissive, and definitely sexier. I’ve also thought more recently how, if I ever moved somewhere and “started over”, that I truly would be “our” as someone who now prefers to dress femme and professionally. I almost feel like I would just leave that entire part of my wardrobe behind and totally embrace my danielle half. Would I still be biologically male? Yes. Would I fully embrace my outward femme appearance? Also, yes. While I wouldn’t like the downside of needing almost an hour to get ready to go anywhere, all of the positives would outweigh that one negative.
I would hope that final step would result in my no longer needing chastity to control that urge down there so could start uninformed my balls to control me. Using parachutes and humblers to help attach ropes and leashes to lead me around without me making silly little messes, but I’m not sure I will ever advance that far. That flesh between my thighs is a permanent weakness that needs your control to keep me focused on becoming the perfect girl that you need me to be to keep you happy.
I really hope that we won’t have to skip a week. The more I think about it, I’d rather work an extra-long day or two if I need to come to you on Friday or Saturday. After such a great time serving you last week…knowing all those hours of brain conditioning yielded those results, I feel more like your perfect sissy slave than ever.
