The holidays are always so exhausting. At this point they feel like a full week plus a few days of being in a boy costume and wearing a figurative mask. Where I normally have a lot of time to come home from work and change right into something femme, because I’ve been inundated with family functions, I’ve been stuck in that costume way more than normal. Not being able to have that full day each week where I just get to be danielle from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed while serving your in person is just icing on the already bitter cake.
You’ve mentioned how there is withdrawal from that and I’m experiencing it. It’s come in the form of being exhausted at the end of family functions where I’m feeling like I have to act like my old self before your conditioning. I know it used to be easy to be that person, but now that I’ve mostly been under your thumb consistently for the past two years, it’s now very difficult. I fall asleep way earlier than normal, I also feel more tired during the day, and with the chastity added my fantasies for release have all but disappeared. I don’t have the ability to tease and deny the same way you do, so I’m pretty much in a constant state of rest.
With you being busy as well I’ve had no assignments or ways to feel under your thumb. I’ve basically just reverted to just existing.
All I do is keep trying to remind myself that I will get to come serve you again soon. Hopefully that time with you will just be a huge rush making up for lost time instead of just dipping my toe back in the water. I want to feel like the slut you had started to finally spark up in me instead of just the demure girl. I want to beg for a humiliating slutty release. I want to hear that laugh you have when you know I’ve broken through another hurdle due to your conditioning. Until then, I will just look forward with extreme desire to our next meeting.
**Note from MsPatty
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