This week i reached 1 year in chastity to you, about half of which you also took control of my body shaping by locking me into a corset. Our now almost weekly meetings have progressed beyond just kink play and are now almost solely spent on conditioning my mind to accept my new reality of a TPE D/s relationship. If you decide to text me and order me to do something, i now do it without hesitation. You don’t take advantage of me in this state either, so every time i do get an order, it is always my pleasure to make your wish my command.
I have developed a few new “things” thanks to your conditioning. First has been the side effect of using a diaper while undergoing my conditioning sessions in your cage now feeling very close to an orgasm. The way you secure me in the cage all but forces it to happen. There is always about a half hour lead up to it happening where i want to release so bad. When i finally do and my bladder empties the feeling of release is so intense and pleasurable. The only thing i can compare it to is an orgasm.
The second are actual orgasms. On the very rare occasions where you permit one, you have started to make me watch myself having them and convinced me that i am nothing but a slut while they are happening. Due to this all of my fantasies of having them have now started revolving around ways i can look extra slutty in hopes that you will allow them more often going forward. I think about being bound with my legs above my head and being forced to spill my mess right into my face, or having my mess collected and used as “special lip gloss”, or just added to a glass of water and being forced to drink my mess, or even coerced into having one while servicing your strap on. I never thought these were ways i wanted to make my mess but knowing you would get entertainment from these ways now makes me want to do them.
I also realized that in this last year i bought absolute no new boy clothing. Everything i bought was added to danielle’s side of the closet. If i were to take a position in an office as a female, i would have no challenge meeting a dress code and could probably go close to a month without repeating an outfit. You text me more often when i send you pictures of me dressed as well, which often inspires me to dress any time I’m able to.
My makeup skills are getting better as well. It now only takes about 10-15 minutes total to do my makeup appropriately to serve you in person. It’s been a year of self-growth into what is becoming hopefully your perfect sissy.
I look forward to how you will continue to shape me into your perfect slave going forward.
