This week’s session was certainly eye opening. When you told me to plan on being there longer than normal, I thought for sure it meant you had some sort of task you needed me to complete for you. I didn’t even expect what you had planned. More and more the act of getting ready in the morning to come serve you is taking a bit longer as you have added small steps like the hair extensions and this week the press on nails (which didn’t work on my thumbs). I had gotten to the point where that took only about 40 minutes, but it’s back up to about an hour again.
Once I got to your home, you answered a few of my questions as we approach 1 full year in chastity. I now know it’s very possible that a lot of these changes I’ve been feeling mentally about how natural I feel when femme may very well be permanent. The “turned on” feeling I used to get when dressing before I would play with myself, make a mess, and then undress has all but ended. I no longer get turned on by just simply dressing, but I do still like the way I look. Instead of feeling turned on, instead I just thing think I look kind of sexy and feel almost confident. I still have no real desire to go out and interact with many people while totally femme…there are too many things about myself that give away I’m biologically male and the world isn’t exactly super forgiving to femme biological males, but I feel like if I were to be sent somewhere by you to someone who knew I was representing you, that I would be confident completing that task.
My time in the cage was eye opening as well. When you released me from the cage and told me that you had removed the chastity cage for 2 hours before putting it back on without me even realizing it I was astounded. I didn’t make a mess, I didn’t achieve a full erection, and I certainly felt like I was still locked in it the whole time. I did feel you playing with it and giving me a light tease, but I didn’t realize it had been removed. I now wonder if you might finally be able to do things to my balls while cages without causing me to spill my mess, thus giving you more pleasure. I’m not sure if it was the more severe nipple clamps that kept me from getting a full erection, the very restrictive lap bar that has a side effect of causing me to use the diaper, or just being in chastity in general, but I’m hoping maybe my natural tendency to make a mess with very little stimulation may be close to solved.
I also got to experience one of the best orgasms ever. After being released from the cage, I thought for sure I was being told to dress to go home. When you told me to stop before beginning to button my blouse and kneel in front of you facing away and looking in the mirror, I saw a very sexy looking version of danielle. When you pulled me by my hair cack toward you and teased my breasts and nipples, I still didn’t anticipate what was going to happen. The vibrator came out and I felt my hips start to move up and down. When you ordered me to open my mouth and gave me permission to orgasm, I heard your voice in my head from the headphones. “Do as she instruct you to do, without hesitation”. The feeling passed through my entire body like a huge wave. I’m not sure how much mess came out into my panties, but the orgasm I felt was beyond amazing. Being forced to watch myself having it in the mirror just reinforced how much better I am as danielle. Half dressed like a secretary on a date, make up on point, you are pulling my head back by my hair while long moans of pleasure escaped my deep red lips and looking myself in my eyes highlighted with silvery eye shadow is still burned in my brain.
The first night wasn’t that restless, I was so exhausted that I slept all night. Last night was, however, interrupted a few times. I took today off work and have napped once today. I already can’t wait to return. To feel you locking me into whatever position you want me in. To be conditioned and have my femininity become even more permanent. To be your personal sissy.
