I think my conditioning has developed to the point where you have replaced other sensations as more enjoyable in my brain than orgasms. This week while in your cage I first noticed that I wasn’t quite as secured as previous sessions. You gave me more freedom to move my head as I could actually raise it off the mat. You gave me more freedom to move my hips as you at one point moved that restraining from just above the chastity device to my thigh area. You also didn’t attach my wrist restraints to my collar, instead opting to attach them to the chain on my corset. While that allowed me to feel areas of my body below my waist, it prevented me from being able to touch my chest area.
The nipple clamps you used this week were also not nearly as severe as the ones you had used previously. It still was quite painful when you removed them, but I was able to stand having them on the entire time I was in the cage. The effect of that was one that kept me aroused the entire time I was in the cage.
The result of all of those modifications was a pretty much constant tease for the entire time in the cage. I had drank a normal amount of liquid that morning, but that constant teasing must have made that liquid process quicker because at one point the teasing started to feel like I was going to release a mess even though I was the chastity cage. What happened instead surprised me.
I didn’t make a mess, but I felt my bladder start to cramp. It was maybe 3-5 minutes before you let me out of your cage that I used my diaper. I also am pretty sure I heard you laugh as I used it. It wasn’t an orgasm, but that release felt almost like one. It must have lasted 10-15 seconds and the entire time it felt amazing. I knew it was making you happy while at the same time feeling like such an amazing relief.
What you did after has had the most lasting effect though. In the past, anytime I used the diaper, you allowed me to remove it. This time you just had me put a second diaper on over it and made me wear that fully wet diaper for the rest of the day. I used it again a few hours later after getting home and it felt like a second small orgasm. Thanks to your conditioning, my brain has now begun to process the feeling of using a diaper the way it used to process the feeling of release when I was able to masturbate. I now crave the feeling of being totally out of control in your cage and releasing into the diaper. Being forced to stew in that full diaper the rest of the day kept me in subspace, and that subspace has lasted until right now and continues. I keep hoping a text message will come through telling me to get in a certain outfit for you and send you a selfie, or to lock the pink collar on as you had me do last week and set the timer on the lock for a long period of time.
I want to have my limits pushed more and more just for the purpose of knowing that same laugh was going to come out of your mouth that escaped when I filled my diaper.
One thing is for sure. That feeling was so pleasurable, I’m going to drink extra water before being put in your cage to assure that it will happen again.
