It’s now been almost 4 full weeks since being in your cage and hearing your mantra forced into my brain through your headphones, yet I can still recite those words like some of the biggest ear worm one hit wonder songs of my life. This is how I know your conditioning has all but worked and is pretty much complete. This week we did not meet in person, and I still hear those words toss around in my head a few times per day any time I’m alone and my brain calms down.
I of course miss the time serving you in person, but in these weeks off I always fantasize about being even more restrained in your restrained and even more stimulated by your touch instead of my own. The ways you have found to keeps my legs pinned have me believing that soon you will find a way so I won’t be able to move my head at all or will have my arms restrained in such a way that I won’t be able to touch any part of my own body. Once in the cage, I will exist as only a brain with the only physical stimulation coming from your hands and implements.
I also fantasize about being released from that state, being given a few tasks, and then going right back in the cage in that state again. My existence being totally a plaything or tool for your whims and desires. Being released to complete tasks as your slave will begin to feel like freedom instead of servitude. The cage will begin to feel like my home…. like a crate trained dog.
When outside of your home, I will still be dressed in such a way that I am representing you in a professional way, always smiling, always looking presentable should I be asked “do the spin” for you to show that I am up to dress code.
My chastity is now just second nature. It’s not even torture anymore. It’s just a part of me. I often wonder what even 5 or 10 minutes would feel like without it on. Would I pretty much make a mess in seconds as I always did? Would I be able to sleep through naturally occurring erections should I fall asleep without it? Would locking it back on bring relief or would it come with the side effect of that subby feeling the first time it was ever locked onto me?
The weeks between seeing you always come with more questions than answers but make me so much more grateful for those weeks I do get to kneel at your feet in person.
