It was great to be able to come back and serve You in person after a week off with no contact, no assignment, and nothing to reenforce that submissive feeling. One thing I learned this week if I am getting very used to the time in your cage with my senses being taken away. I’ve almost completely adapted to the current level of restrictions put on me. It makes me wonder if there are more layers to come or if the next step is longer periods of time.
This time, however, you only kept me in for a little over an hour. It honestly felt like about half that time while still leaving me in a very submissive state. Upon being released the gift you gave me of being put in your nipple clamps and ordered to put on my shorts and punishment blouse just made that feeling amplify. I can only imagine if you had chosen to lock the blouse on, making the nipple clamps unreachable as I completed the tasks you required of me.
There was a time years ago where I would have run back inside your home if I had seen someone coming my way while completing my tasks. Through your training and conditioning, when it happened this week I didn’t even feel a modicum of fear. My purpose was to do as instructed to do, without hesitation. Someone came walking by and despite my obvious femme attire and make up, I just went on with my task. I didn’t don’t even rush. I actually found myself enjoying the fact that I had an outdoor task and hoped more would be given to me. Even though the nipple clamps were causing a bit of discomfort and the burlap lining of the punishment blouse was rubbing my skin, those feelings were almost forgotten due to the pleasure I was feeling knowing I was serving my purpose and probably putting a smile on your face.
The only thing I didn’t do this week while serving was use the diaper. I think this was due to not spending as much time in the cage with constant pressure put on my bladder by plastic wrapping and lap bars. Going to work outside and sweating out some fluid probably helped as well. It did result in me being sent home in the diaper which I did use within a half hour of leaving. It made the two hours that I was still required to wear it uncomfortable, but once again I knew that was pleasing you, so I didn’t mind as much.
When I compare my level of obedience before the sensory conditioning began roughly 4 months ago to now, I can see the huge leap I’ve taken, even though it’s happened in baby steps. Once again, I can’t wait to keep taking steps forward so that one day I can be your perfectly trained slave, worthy of staying 24-48 hours at a time.
