I’ve noticed lately how much my fantasies have changed since our almost weekly meeting have become more like mental conditioning than simple play sessions. Before when I had D/s fantasies, they all centered around dressing, being feminized, and different kinds of humiliation and/or emasculation. Lately those have changed.
Being female has almost become normal. I still don’t go out as danielle. You will never see her in the wild in my town, but it’s not something I see as humiliating anymore. It’s become somewhat normal. I’ve even noticed over the last year almost all my clothing purchases have been for female attire. I’m now down to just two pairs of male pants and almost all of my undergarments are female.
My fantasies these days all seem to center around being enslaved for an extended period of time. I keep fantasizing about reporting to you on a Thursday at our normal time, but instead of being dismissed just a few hours later, I’m told that you plan on keeping me until Friday or Saturday evening. I’ll be wearing what you tell me, completing tasks, being stored in your cage when not in use. The bondage and shackles will be permanent. I’ll be outside in them and possibly even accompany you to a grocery store or a gathering in them. I’ll know that my discomfort is making you happy thus I’ll be serving my purpose. I’ll be put to bed, woken up at your whim, dressed and diapered how you wish…
It makes me wonder how much of that kind of living I could take. I know it’s just a fantasy and I for sure would have a breaking point, but every time I emerge from your cage with instructions to stay dressed and diapered well into the evening hours these fantasies get stronger and stronger. What seemed so fantastical when I read these types of stories on the internet 20 years ago seem like something I could take in reality today. I’m not sure if this was your intention when you began this conditioning with me earlier this year, but it is where my brain is going.
