This week I feel like a huge step forward was achieved in my conditioning. It also took me to the brink of exhaustion and sanity.
This week before arriving I drank 32oz of Gatorade and a bottle of vitamin water. When I arrived and attempted to drink my required 2 liters of water, it just wouldn’t all fit. By the time I was gagged, collared, cuffed, wrapped, and diapered before being ordered to enter my cage, I had developed a case of the hiccups that unfortunately didn’t quit. This time, once in the cage, you added the extra restraints that pinned me down. The addition of those restraints and the case of the hiccups brought on a few mild panic attacks that didn’t allow me to disassociate and fall into my usual trance mode. There were a few times where I considered using a “safe word”. I was able to stave off the attacks each time and get my breathing under control to be able to last the full session. I’m absolutely sure the extra fluids I drank before arriving are the reason for the hiccups. I will probably not be doing that again and only following your orders of the 2 liters of water.
The last 20 or 30 minutes I did begin to strain in my chastity cage. Because of the extra restraints what had resulted in my hips moving up and down now resulted in the entire lower half of my body trying to gyrate and failing. I could only moan in a sort of frustrated pleasure. I wanted so bad for you to use your vibrator to tease me to release. Instead, you just caressed my thighs, poked at my cage through the heavily wrapped diaper, caused my body to involuntarily try to fuck the chastity device before finally releasing me from the cage.
As soon as I was able to sit up the hiccups and the case of heartburn, I had developed subsided, and I had no lingering panicked feeling. The nipple torture you gave me did have me wanting to beg to finally cum for the first time in what feels like forever, but once again you decided to leave me a totally frustrated ball of submissive goo.
Unlike previous weeks, it took almost until the time I was allowed to remove the diaper for my body to release into it. It was barely 30 minutes after I was permitted to take it off that I was asleep, totally exhausted from my time in the cage.
I don’t know how you will add any additional layers of bondage to what you have done to me now in this conditioning, but I have learned that you always have something planned to take me deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole.
