This week has left me very curious about what you have planned next for me.
Usually, my time spent in your cage allows some light to get through the hood while taking away my speech and some of my ability to move with my wrists being chained to my collar. When you said “this is just step 1” this week before completely blacking out my eyesight, wrapping my head in something after putting on the hood, gagging me, chaining me, and having me wear a diaper before putting me in the cage I wasn’t sure how long I would be in the cage. Especially since no extra bondage was added to my hands or feet. When I was let out after just the normal hour, used for a short time to test out your new fucking machine with my mouth, and then dismissed, it left me both curious and confused.
I’m wondering if “step one” was so mild because “step 2” is going to be very intense, or if those is something that is going to be very slowly escalated. I’m wondering what the final goal you have for me is in this case. I’m wondering exactly how crazy I may go during a future session…
About a half hour into this one, I know I was 100% awake, but I had what felt like the equivalent of REM sleep where I could “see” things. They lasted maybe 15-20 seconds each time and were very surreal visions, but then they would disappear, and I would be in total darkness again…still hearing you rooting the dungeon room going through things for when you had a use for me.
I loved the feeling I had when you called for me to crawl out of the cage. I felt so much like a toy. I loved and felt every sensation tenfold. When you poked me just before calling for me, I realized I was so controlled at that point that I was nothing more than an object. To you I was no longer danielle, no longer even human. I was just a collection of people looking body parts for you to poke, prod, and play with. I also felt completely at peace in that state. I was actually confused that you didn’t use me for that long at all while I was in that state. I thought that maybe I had done something wrong when everything came off so abruptly and you ordered me to get dressed and dismissed me…. yet you said you kept me longer than normal. It didn’t feel like that long at all.
“Step 2”, “step 3”, and beyond has my anticipation, and my anxiety, at an all-time high.
Warm weather is on the horizon. I’m looking forward to short sleeved dresses, cute short skirts and blouses, and pulling my hair back.
My purpose is to give my Mistress obedience and pleasure.
