The line between pain and pleasure gets thinner and thinner. As I reflect on our meeting this week, I realize that there is one glaring thing that you did to me that should have registered as painful that at this time I can only recall feeling very pleasurable. I know this is because of how you orchestrated things, but it now makes me wonder what else is about to become that dichotomy in the future. When you attached the nipple clamps this time while your fucking machine was hitting my prostate, then attached those the chain on those clamps above me to pull on my nipples, I was having a forced orgasm at the same time. I should have been feeling nothing but pain due to those clamps, but instead it became a pleasurable feeling, and my brain remembers it that way. The same thing happened when the clamps were removed, and you massaged them as, yet another orgasm was being forced. I know I felt pain, but as I reflect, my brain remembers it as feeling wonderful.
From the second you pulled me from the cage and told me “you are going to be my dolly today”, I knew I was in for a special new experience. It certainly turned out that way. One of the things I noticed most is that while you secured my legs in an immobile state, the rest of my body was left unbound. Even though I had the freedom to move everything from my waist up in your medical chair, once the fucking machine started, I realized it wouldn’t matter and quickly gave up. I left my arms at my sides, I didn’t bother moving my head, and only when the initial tugging on my nipples happened did, I arch my back. The entire rest of my focus was on not making a mess. I wanted to be able to sleep uninterrupted. Luckily on that mission, I succeeded.
My danielle training of course remains consistent. I very rarely get anxiety about needing out of the corset anymore. It is just a second skin. I loosen it to sleep, but it still stays at least at 30inches thanks to the now tightened chain. I then tighten it again for work where I have a feeling, I am walking with a 29-inch waist. I did have one period of discomfort all week where I worked Saturday evening and by 8pm just wanted to finally loosen it for the day. Alas, I was about 4 hours away from that happening at that point. Needless to say, when I was finally able to give myself that extra inch, that relief felt like an orgasm in itself. I can only imagine how I’m going to feel the next time the corset comes off fully. As with everything, that feeling is totally at your mercy.
My purpose is to give my Mistress obedience and pleasure.
